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Pondering My Childhood

Pondering My Childhood

By Johnny Denden
Lead Convenor of HAPI-Cagayan De Oro

As an adult, I find myself doing little things for myself to keep me sane and balanced. When I was young, I did not care much about world affairs. Now, I feel a huge responsibility resting on my shoulders. It is not pleasant to constantly make the best version of yourself and match the competition in the world arena.

art, thinker, sculpture-2981726.jpgBecoming an adult is an inevitable journey but one can’t help but reminisce on how beautiful childhood was. As a child, we tend to climb and walk across unending dangers with limitless speed and strength; as working-class adults, it feels like we will never get that energy back. We may think that we know it all already, but this mentality is a prison. We call this “adulthood” yet it seems like a nightmare. It doesn’t free us from the agony of this world; if anything, it becomes some kind of curse that makes us want to go back to our childhood days.

The present is so annoying as to be a threat to our very existence; everything we do might be a problem tomorrow, and everything we want tends to be so calculated that the process itself becomes a chore. This burden haunts us every night, giving us anxiety over our endeavors.

Adulthood demands that everything I do should be precise and perfect. The reason I rail against this is that I’ve been a rebel in my own way since childhood: if my parents wanted to ground me, for instance, I would not come home until I’d exhausted my days on the other side of the world. I would go back to my home suffering the wrath of my parents as a consequence but at least I enjoyed it and got some memories out of it. Life works differently depending on what stage you are in it. During my childhood, I only valued enjoyment without worries; as an adult, every risk could lead to devastation.

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